08-08-2025 15:22PM. Just to say hello.
I wanted to start this blog, simply to have a first entry and be able to continue from there. I'm not really one for keeping diaries, and although the title of this section is literally "diary," it won't be a daily diary at all, because I'm not good at keeping things up to date on a daily basis, and I certainly don't have that many important things to say so often! In fact, I don't think I have an interesting enough life to reflect here. Keeping a diary has certain connotations that are too egocentric in my opinion. It's private, you can write whatever you want, but sometimes I think it's a bit of a strange performance, ".....Dear diary..." I don't know. This is a public blog, it doesn't have much to do with a private diary, rather nothing at all, it's just a place to express myself in a more casual way than the ramblings I post in my essays.
Right now, I'm still finishing the HTML for this website. It will change a lot, I'm sure. I spend many hours browsing files on old websites for inspiration. The website I browse the most is probably the Internet Archive. Viewing old websites is also for entertainment. Looking at dead websites, or websites that are still alive but haven't been updated since the 2000s, fills me with a strange feeling. Where are those people now? What are they doing? Do they know that their websites have been archived? I'll probably talk about this in more depth because it obsesses me quite a bit.

09-08-2025 15:57PM. I am lacking ideas.
Well, it's not really that I lack ideas, I think I lack the confidence to put them into practice. Even though this website is public, it's just for me, to entertain myself and keep myself active, so I shouldn't care. I overthink things a lot, I mull them over and over, I'm a bit of a circus in that regard. In fact, the opposite of not having ideas is true, I have many, and I want to carry them out. I'd like to scan some of the physical albums I have or magazines I collect, and I'd also like to scan some of the things I've written on paper that are perhaps a little more poetic or profound (I'm a super corny poet) and maybe post them here, along with some drawings (I have no idea how to draw, but I've liked doing it since I was little).
Maybe doing all those things will force me to start writing and drawing again, which is one of the main reasons I created VAMPIRA. Today I had a very uncomfortable dream and I didn't get any rest. I feel like the academic year is coming down on me again. I'm afraid I won't be able to be as consistent as I'd like to be with this website. As I said, it's not going to be a daily thing, none of the sections of the website, and I'd like to change it a lot. You could say that this website is going to be a constant work in progress. However, even though it's not going to be an everyday thing, I'd like to stay active here, even if it's just to prove it to myself.
Nothing remarkable has happened to me yet today. In fact, it's still early to write anything on heere, but I've been thinking all day about how to orient the website, which is still a newborn baby, so I guess it's normal to think about it a lot. I think another interesting part of this may be seeing VAMPIRA evolve, the new sections it may have, how its appearance will change. It's fun to think about, but right now I'm having a hard time getting started. I'm afraid the best thing to do is to think about it for a few days, give myself a few days to write things that require more time, and pop in here from time to time, maybe to write in this blog and change a few things here and there. I'm enjoying this.

12-08-2025 16:30PM
I've been thinking a lot about the page's design, but I haven't implemented any changes yet. I'm lazy, I overthink things, and I think my exaggerated perfectionism is holding me back, LOL. That's one of the main changes I'm referring to. For now, it's just a thought, and I know it will take a long time to implement.
Another major change is that my eyebrow piercing is rejecting, so I have to remove it after three years. I'm quite sad about it because it helps you feel comfortable with yourself and your identity. Besides, after so many years, you develop an attachment to it. However, I also want to see what I look like with a clear face, so I'll be removing it soon. One more change. I was an Evanescence girl for long enough.
I've spent the last few days looking at old photos of where I live and gossiping around. I found mostly of these photos on the internet; they were taken when I was little. I'm a nostalgic person, often to the extreme. It's as if I have an intense thirst that can only be quenched by nostalgia from these kinds of things. I've also seen photos of my school and of myself when I was little. I think this is another process of change, both in my town and in myself. There's change in both my town and myself. Sometimes, it's overwhelming to try to comprehend how much I and my surroundings have changed.